Feel.

i want so badly to feel.. to feel like someone cares.. like i have a shoulder to cry on. but not just any shoulder.. the shoulder of  someone accepting.. willing to accept all that i am and also the flaws that i posses.  i am far from perfect, and i want that to be understood. i want many things right now..endless, infinite things. but the one thing that i would choose out of  my many desires  is nothing more than that of.... love. whatever that may be, i am not sure because it is love that my soul has yet to experience.. it is love that i need to be happy... it is love that i need to feel . . . . complete.

i need to..

enjoy myself. have fun. i need to stop being self-concious. i need to stop thinking that absolutely no one will ever understand me or the way i think. i need to be more fearless. i need more confidence in myself. i need to not stress. i need to not worry. i need to erase all the anxieties that have kept me from doing certain things. i need to pursue my interests. i need to stop holding back. i need to live happily. i need to live freely. i need to live LIFE.